Yesterday I found out that
my very godly, wonderful boss will be leaving UNT to go work in Canada to be
closer to his family. I was shocked by this announcement. There were so many
emotions and thoughts flooding my mind all at the same time. I don’t know all I
need to know about my job (he has been my “safety net”). I won’t be able to “pick
his brain” enough before he leaves to learn the things I need to learn. Well,
Levelland here I come! Is this the ‘sign’ I have been waiting for to know if I
am supposed to move to Levelland? Who will answer my questions about the
overwhelming spreadsheet that he created for me to do my job.
I have been in prayer asking
God if I am supposed to move to Levelland to be able to help Cathy and Justin
out with the kids. I have been ‘waiting’ to hear from him. Was this the answer?
I don’t know, but I know that God is present and comforting me.
This morning as I am whining
again to God about not knowing what
to do, this is what I got.
The In Touch Magazine daily
devotional was titled, Defeating
Discouragement. This was just what I needed to hear and read this morning.
The scripture reference was Nehemiah 2:1-9.
Nehemiah was sad that city
where his ancestors are buried lies in ruins. He wanted to go and rebuild the city. He wanted
to ‘go’. Again, I asked God, “Am I supposed to move to Levelland?” In my
heart I want to go, but only if that is God’s plan.
So, as I was ‘discussing’
this with God this morning he told me I need to be more specific with my
prayers. You need to pray for what you
want!! Now that is a bit scary for me!
So this is now my prayer:
Lord, I
want to move to Levelland and I want a job where I can still pay into TRS and I
want a definite answer from You that I am supposed to move! I want to move so I
can be a blessing to Cathy, Justin and those sweet babies. I want a job that
will give me enough flexibility to go to see Jennifer, Will and those sweet
babies as often as I/they need me.
Nehemiah 2
1In the month of Nisan in the twentieth year of King
Artaxerxes, when wine was brought for him, I took the wine and gave it to the
king. I had not been sad in his presence before, 2 so the king
asked me, “Why does your face look so sad when you are not ill? This can be
nothing but sadness of heart.”
I was very much afraid, 3 but I said to the
king, “May the king live forever! Why should my face not look sad when the city
where my ancestors are buried lies in ruins, and its gates have been destroyed
by fire?”
4 The king said to me, “What is it you want?”
Then I prayed to the God of heaven, 5 and I
answered the king, “If it pleases the king and if your servant has found favor
in his sight, let him send me to the city in Judah where my ancestors are
buried so that I can rebuild it.”
6 Then the king, with the queen sitting beside him, asked me,
“How long will your journey take, and when will you get back?” It pleased the
king to send me; so I set a time.
7 I also said to him, “If it pleases the king, may I have
letters to the governors of Trans-Euphrates, so that they will provide me
safe-conduct until I arrive in Judah? 8 And may I have a letter
to Asaph, keeper of the royal park, so he will give me timber to make beams for
the gates of the citadel by the temple and for the city wall and for the
residence I will occupy?” And because the gracious hand of my God was on me,
the king granted my requests. 9 So I went to the governors of
Trans-Euphrates and gave them the king’s letters. The king had also sent army
officers and cavalry with me.
