Yesterday I found out that my very godly, wonderful boss will be leaving UNT to go work in Canada to be closer to his family. I was shocked by this announcement. There were so many emotions and thoughts flooding my mind all at the same time. I don’t know all I need to know about my job (he has been my “safety net”). I won’t be able to “pick his brain” enough before he leaves to learn the things I need to learn. Well, Levelland here I come! Is this the ‘sign’ I have been waiting for to know if I am supposed to move to Levelland? Who will answer my questions about the overwhelming spreadsheet that he created for me to do my job.
I have been in prayer asking God if I am supposed to move to Levelland to be able to help Cathy and Justin out with the kids. I have been ‘waiting’ to hear from him. Was this the answer? I don’t know, but I know that God is present and comforting me.
This morning as I am whining again to God about not knowing what to do, this is what I got.
The In Touch Magazine daily devotional was titled, Defeating Discouragement. This was just what I needed to hear and read this morning. The scripture reference was Nehemiah 2:1-9.
Nehemiah was sad that city where his ancestors are buried lies in ruins. He wanted to go and rebuild the city. He wanted to ‘go’. Again, I asked God, “Am I supposed to move to Levelland?” In my heart I want to go, but only if that is God’s plan.
So, as I was ‘discussing’ this with God this morning he told me I need to be more specific with my prayers. You need to pray for what you want!! Now that is a bit scary for me!
So this is now my prayer:
Lord, I want to move to Levelland and I want a job where I can still pay into TRS and I want a definite answer from You that I am supposed to move! I want to move so I can be a blessing to Cathy, Justin and those sweet babies. I want a job that will give me enough flexibility to go to see Jennifer, Will and those sweet babies as often as I/they need me.
1In the month of Nisan in the twentieth year of King Artaxerxes, when wine was brought for him, I took the wine and gave it to the king. I had not been sad in his presence before, 2 so the king asked me, “Why does your face look so sad when you are not ill? This can be nothing but sadness of heart.”
I was very much afraid, 3 but I said to the king, “May the king live forever! Why should my face not look sad when the city where my ancestors are buried lies in ruins, and its gates have been destroyed by fire?”
4 The king said to me, “What is it you want?”
Then I prayed to the God of heaven, 5 and I answered the king, “If it pleases the king and if your servant has found favor in his sight, let him send me to the city in Judah where my ancestors are buried so that I can rebuild it.”
6 Then the king, with the queen sitting beside him, asked me, “How long will your journey take, and when will you get back?” It pleased the king to send me; so I set a time.
7 I also said to him, “If it pleases the king, may I have letters to the governors of Trans-Euphrates, so that they will provide me safe-conduct until I arrive in Judah? 8 And may I have a letter to Asaph, keeper of the royal park, so he will give me timber to make beams for the gates of the citadel by the temple and for the city wall and for the residence I will occupy?” And because the gracious hand of my God was on me, the king granted my requests. 9 So I went to the governors of Trans-Euphrates and gave them the king’s letters. The king had also sent army officers and cavalry with me.